Realizing This Is My Now
Have you ever
realized you’re
already living in
the “someday”
you used to
imagine?
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For most of my life, I talked about the future like it was somewhere far away.
I would say things like, “When I’m older…”
“When I have a home…”
“When life settles down…”
Another part of this realization has come through everything I’ve walked
through these last couple of years.
When you go through something that shakes your life the way cancer did for
me, the idea that tomorrow isn’t promised stops feeling like a cliché. It becomes
very real.
It made me slow down and look at my life differently.
I started realizing how lucky I am to be right here, in this moment, with my
family. Not because everything is perfect—far from it—but because I’m here for
all of it.
The good.
The hard.
And yes, even the messy parts.
Life can feel heavy sometimes. It can weigh all of us down. But lately I’ve started
to notice something in those heavy moments.
What used to feel like breakdowns… are slowly turning into breakthroughs.
I know without a doubt that I would not be standing here today if it weren’t for
God guiding me every single day of my life.
Nothing in life is certain for any of us. But for me, I know He is.
And that truth gives me a peace that keeps holding me together.
So instead of feeling like I have to push through this season, I’m learning to be
grateful that I get to.
I get to watch my kids grow.
I get to share life with my husband.
I get to experience these ordinary days that once felt so far away.
My kids will only be this little for so long.
My husband and I will only be this young once.
This is it.
And no matter how messy life gets, I’m soaking it all in.
One day at a time… and today I’m thankful I’m here for it.
Scripture that’s been on my heart lately:
“This is the day that the Lord has made;
let us rejoice and be glad in it.”